FEED ME SKINNY
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hi, im 18 turning onto 19if i don't get skinny now i will be fat forever!
i have always longed to be skinny.
its time to turn dreams into reality.
Height =64 inch
START WEIGHT = 64kg 141 lbs
25.06.2010 = 62KG =D
REWARDS
57kg = HAIRCUT
52kg = NEW BAG
Goal weight= 50 kg 110 lbs
03.02.2011
today is such a bad day. i finished lectures at 11 and have been binging since i got back. i dont know why. i feel disgusting. i feel fat. i hate this. i couldnt stop. i just ate and ate then i had to get it out of my system. i feel shit.
shit
shit
I detest every single inch of my body. Every feature. every limb. Each and every part. I’m lying here in my bed studying from head to toe this body of mine. I hate it. It makes me want to cry. Nothing is in proportion. Nothing is right. if I had the chance I would change everything. I’m so ugly. I don’t know what to do anymore. I Want to die. I hate myself so much.
I’m so angry at myself. That I can’t be perfect. That what I want is never going to come. Because it doesn’t exist. what is the point in me now??
I’m never going to LET myself feel like this EVER again. I so fucking dumb.
thank you. so much. its nice to know im not alone at this. i just want to be normal so bad.
Sleep
I have two friends. They are small. They are skinny. And they are beautiful. I don’t know why they are my friends because I look so out of place when I am with them. I feel like I don’t belong with the skinny people. I’ve never felt so shit.
i always dream about how much better clothes look on me if i was skinny.
you
what are you doing to me? thats what i asked you
what am i going to do with you, i told you i was a silly girl. i told you never to come to my room but still you pushed it and came into me. you made me feel so comfortable like you understood me. like you wanted what i wanted.
but now you are gone. back where you came from-your home. like nothing ever happened, like me and you never met, i just feel so lost, lonely again. by myself,
i don’t know why i do this to myself. when i knew what was going to happen. but i took that risk. and it wasn’t how i wanted it to end. nothing like i wanted it to be. I want to forget you too.
i don’t know what to do anymore, i don’t know who to be anymore.
i feel used,
i was so hooked. but you don’t want me.
im going to leave it. and leave you. i hope you comeback to me, cause i know inside i have given myself to you too easily. that is my regret.
